The Recipe For Alia
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3 parts Imagination
2 parts Originality
1 part Mania
Splash of Nonconformity
Finish off with a squeeze of lime juice
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The Golden Lion Sang at
3/19/2008 04:55:00 PM
Distributing opinion
And avoiding what is true
Give them what they "need to hear"
And what is left of you?
The Golden Lion Sang at
3/10/2008 03:02:00 PM
I'm not usually one for introspection. At least, to the general public, which is what I'm essentially doing here.
But I thought it'd be interesting to explore a rarely talked about subject in society - love!
Okay, I'm a little sarcastic. But at the same time, I'm not. At least, not when
I talk about love. My ideas on the subject are different, and I'd like to say a little unique (as are everyone else's ideas). I completely blame my parents and their own brand of uniqueness; not in a bad way, of course.
Friendship is actually the most important thing to me, and it intertwines with a relationship - a loving relationship - rather tightly. I could never leap into love, or at least, I don't think I could. I won't knock what I haven't tried, but I think it would be highly unlikely. I'm also not saying I have anything planned out either! That's boring...having plans, I mean. An outline, I can see. A color-coded schedule? Ha! Ridiculous, not to mention practically impossible. Nothing in life is organized.
I guess, the closest thing I could come to a romantic fantasy would go something like this:
I know someone for a while. Maybe from childhood, maybe not. But definitely longer than half a year.
We share a lot of things, but we have passions and similar sorts of humor. I like movies and video games - they do too. I happen to love the taste of sushi in the morning, and they seem utterly repulsed by that. We know we aren't perfect - and we understand the boundaries we're willing to cross as well as the ones we know we never will. They support my most beloved activities, and I them. And a few of them, we hate, but we put up with it because, well...we
know each other.
It takes a while, and we may be far apart at times, but whenever we greet each other, its as if we had never left one another. Past, present, and future indiscretions are talked over, sometimes cried about, and we get over it, move on, and try to succeed.
Sooner or later, we pick up that maybe we should probably try out this whole sex thing. In a more informed context. XD From then on, we are even more close, because both of us figure out that even sex isn't that romantic. *laughs*
That's all I have in mind. Man, I'm not even that picky. Image is nice, but not important, because it's true what they say - at the risk of sounding sappy - it's what's on the inside that really counts. If you don't care what your friends look like, why should you care what your lover looks like?
So in conclusion, I suppose that my interests lie in the person who makes me the happiest even in my most uncomfortable hour. Now, I'm sure some of the billions of people (*snark*) who read this blog will wonder how I'll figure out who I love, considering that what I mostly look for can already be found in good friendships. The honest answer is that I don't know. It's probably some indescribable nudge that'll get me to figure it out for myself. Back to color-coded futures - how am I supposed to know anyway? I'm not a psychic after all.
Gender isn't honestly that important. At least, I don't think so. I have to admit I'm more captivated by male features than female ones. I'm terribly shy with guys I'm actually attracted to - or attractive ones - and I hate that terribly, but I've been informed it's a problem that afflicts people all the time (with the same or opposite sex), so I have been working on getting rid of that little issue.
But truthfully, if it came right down to it, I'd have no issue falling in love with people of my own gender or my opposite one. I love the person under the skin, and I'm damn proud that appearances matter so little to me.
So now, after figuring it all out, I suppose I'll just have to keep an eye out. Nobody is ever
not looking for a relationship - it'd be blatant slander/libel to say that. We all crave that need for a partner in crime to share our most intimate and slightly embarrassing thoughts with. And for sex. That's important too. You'd be surprised at how hard it is to get a relationship due to the awkwardness that our own bodies provide us with rather abundantly. Humans, oddly enough, tend to make sex into the most complicated acts on the face of the planet - and I'm not talking about it physically.
The nervousness of doing it with someone you're already close with is actually more daunting an act than experiencing it with a complete stranger. There's the preparation, the act itself, and the slight shame and anxiety that follows afterward (if you hadn't been waiting years for it, that is). It is, as they say, not like it is in the books. Romance or not - fiction is, without a doubt, still
fiction. Sometimes even non-fiction can lie to you, as odd as that seems.
So yes. Love is not sex, and it never will be. It's pretty hard for me to confuse the two. Sex is an action that can violate trust, disillusion the heart-felt, and shatter love completely - as well as provide all of the opposite reactions. So no, sex is REALLY not love.
Love is joy shared. Sometimes, it also causes pain and doubt, but ultimately, it revolves around happiness - whether it's a lack of it, or an acknowledgment of it. It's about friendship taking the next step on the trust scale. Friends might be there when you fall, and sometimes they'll help you pick up the pieces. But a lover
understands why you fell - how hard it was for you to break. And not only will they help pick up the pieces, but they'll put you back together.
All in all, I think I'm lucky. I've found many friends, some close, some not so much. But they've all taught me their lessons in love, and I've learned from them, cataloging their experiences for future reference. I'll admit to not finding (or realizing) anyone who could possibly be closer than a friends, but I'm in no rush. I have the craving, the raw need, to have my missing half with me; just like anyone else in this big wide world.
But I also know that I'd rather have the right one rather than the temporary one. Because if life is going to be as impermanent as I think it is, I'd rather have something I know will last
at least as long as I will.
~ALF out.
The Golden Lion Sang at
3/02/2008 12:48:00 AM
I really am the LUCKIEST hoar. ^_^
The Golden Lion Sang at
11/28/2007 09:19:00 PM
TEN YEARS AGO I ..was making friends and getting whiplash for the first and (*knocksonwood*) last time. I was also enjoying my first boy friend. NOT BOYFRIEND. Boy. Friend. He liked video games. I liked video games. He liked giant space alien movies. So did I. We had fun.
FIVE YEARS AGO I ..had little to lose and everything to gain. And there was EPIC FAIL on that part....
ONE YEAR AGO I ..was wondering if I'd ever make it out of college. Ever.
YESTERDAY I ..was counting down the hours until I internally combusted from INSOMNIA.
FIVE SNACKS I ENJOY:cheeeeeeeese
chocolate
quiche
sushi!
pizza
FIVE SONGS I KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO:"Knees of My Bees" -- Alanis Morissette
"Trouble" -- Pink
"Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds" -- The Beatles
"Personent Hodie" -- ican'tremember...(Damn choir. XD I know I love it.)
"Mystery" -- Indigo Girls
FIVE THINGS I WOULD DO WITH 100 MILLION DOLLARS:Make my OWN house...it will be Fabulous (full of secret passages and trap doors...it will BE THE SHIT)
Invest it to Make more Money
Donating to those who need it
Buy a bunch of pets who are abandoned
Travel EVERYWHERE
FIVE BAD HABITS:ProCRAAAAstinating
Sleeping in too late
my Ego
Being somewhat antisocial at times
Being stupid when I could've been smart
FIVE BIGGEST JOYS:reading a good book that I can't put down
discovering I like something new and someone else agrees with me
getting people to see things my way, even if they don't agree
writing a good story
creating any kind of art
FIVE FAVORITE TOYS:laptop
a pencil and a sheet of paper
my books (does that count? Well, no matter. I SAY IT COUNTS.)
TABLET
my friends (*shifty eyes*)
FIVE PLACES I WOULD RUN AWAY TO:Ireland
Japan
China, when the country is in a good mood
Europe
Canada
FIVE THINGS I WOULD NEVER WEAR:pink
human skin
pink
pink
...pastel colored floral arrangements
FIVE FAVORITE TV SHOWS:HOUSE M.D. (FTW! ^_^ Wilson/House OTP! ...What? THEY ARE MARRIED STFU)
Heroes
Firefly
Invader Zim
Danny Phantom (note: More than half this list is made of CANCELED SHOWS. XD )
FIVE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS I WOULD DATE:...Ponder
Harry Dresden
Neville Longbottom (yeah, that's right. You heard me. NEVILLE. Because he is full of
KICK ASSERY. AND made of win.)
Iruka Umino
Raven (NOT from Teen Titans...you know, the one from Native American folktales? What? He's
HOT.)
Labels: lists meme nostalgic reminiscing
The Golden Lion Sang at
11/28/2007 08:31:00 PM
I tied
FTW!
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GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done drugs.
[ ] You have a lot of friends.
[x] You get along with everyone.
[x] You love soccer.
[ ] You love baseball.
[x] You're into writing and art
[x] Favorite music genre is rock.
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory.
[ ] One of your favorite colors is red or gold.
[ ] Good grades at school.
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie.
[x] You plan on going to college.
TOTAL: 7
HUFFLEPUFF:
[ ] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[ ] Politics suck.
[x] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome.
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing.
[ ] You're an optimist.
[ ] You're very emotional.
[ ] You believe in going steady at a young age.
[ ] You haven't made fun of anyone this month.
[ ]Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship.
TOTAL: 2
RAVENCLAW:
[x] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[x] Sports suck.
[ ] Hate is completely unneeded.
[ ] Indie is your favorite genre of music.
[x] Every once in a while you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay.
[ ] Blue is one of your favorite colors.
[x] Knowledge is the key to power
[x] Sarcasm is the best kind of humor.
[x] People should know what they're talking about before they talk.
TOTAL: 9
SLYTHERIN:
[x] There's at least one person you hate.
[ ] Basketball is a good sport.
[ ] Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[x] You've lied about something serious.
[x] You're a very deep person.
[x] You have considered suicide.
[ ] You are not very loyal.
[x] You like heavy metal.
[x] They make school seem more important than it is.
[x] You're scared to grow up.
[ ] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[x] You have trust issues.
[ ] Guilty until proven innocent.
TOTAL: 9
Labels: sorting hat ftw
The Golden Lion Sang at
11/28/2007 08:30:00 PM
I'm starting to wonder why on earth people even bother saying they want to do things when in reality they have not the inclination, nor the time.
I just spent about an hour and a half out in freezing, snowing weather waiting for something that ended up not happening because everyone couldn't make it, or had other things to do. Or just felt like not doing anything at the last minute.
This happens to me a lot.
We were supposed to meet someone somewhere else as well, and now that that's NOT happening, and no one else had ever contacted them before other than me, I'M going to have to make the call.
On another note, usually, when one is going to drive a fairly largish group of people to a place they had never been before, one would think to look up driving directions and not expect other people to do it FOR you.
So this is what I get to top off probably the worst week I've had in a year or so. Perfect.
*sigh* I'm not angry at anyone. Whenever I get this way, I'm usually just angry at the circumstances that led to it. Hell, I'm one of the most laidback people I know - I just don't like things or plans that have been worked over for a week suddenly decapitated.
What an image. Still, it doesn't change the fact that this happens a LOT. I'm usually the person who rallies the rest of my wayward flock together in order to do anything - maybe that's why this happens so often. If I'm the only one wanting to actually do anything, no wonder shit never works out!
*doubleSIGH* Yeah. Okay. I'm done whining. ALF out.
The Golden Lion Sang at
11/18/2007 07:09:00 AM
TRUTH: My hardships are nothing compared to others'.
TRUTH: I need to survive, and doing that means sacrificing a lot.
LIE: I feel bad about
all my past mistakes.
Of all the times in my life to get serious, this is the time. Undoubtedly.
Never before have I needed so much of myself to get so little, but if I'm going to do it, I really need to buckle down and kick ass. Serious ass. There will be so much ass kickery, my feet'll be sore later.
So, to start, I'll need:
1. A diet that I'll follow in earnest.
2. Read the damn assignments.
3. LISTEN.
4. Know my boundaries and my limits, as well as the ones of those
around me.
5. To never fall down so hard that I can't get up. I will always
rise again. Always.
Those are just a few things. I'm not even including a will of iron or a mind of wit.
ALF out.
The Golden Lion Sang at
9/09/2007 09:02:00 PM
You are unique--though you may have many influences from the outside world that allow you to share common likes and dislikes, you are you, and no one else can be quite like you are.
Do unto others as you would do unto them.
Relevance and context is everything.
You may take a horse to water, but you can't make it drink.
Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away.
Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.
We often confuse what we wish for with what is.
Life isn't always just.
Words and compassion are the better way, even if it's slower than a gun.
The fool looks at a finger that points at the sky.
We pass the time of day to forget how time passes.
These are hard times for dreamers.
Mastering others will give you strength; mastering yourself makes you fearless.
The future is not a straight line. There are many different pathways. We must try to decide that future for ourselves.
Man will occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of the time he will pick himself up and carry on as if nothing happened.
Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.
War does not determine who is right. War determines who is left.
If you lend someone $20, and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
Never take life seriously; nobody gets out alive anyway.
Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
Everybody starts out with a full bag of luck and an empty bag of experience. The trick is to fill the bag of experience before the luck runs out.
When your life shatters into a million pieces, pick up the pieces, grab some glue, and make a new one.
Do not regret growing old. It's a privilege denied to many.
If at first you don't succeed, re-define success.
Love many, trust few, and always paddle your own canoe.
If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
If you explain so clearly that nobody can misunderstand, somebody will.
Never miss a good chance to shut up.
Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment.
No one else is listening, until you make a mistake.
Learn from the mistakes of others. You won't live long enough to make them all yourself.
Keep looking around; there's always something you've missed.
It doesn't matter if you win or lose.. until you lose.
If you keep your feet firmly on the ground, you’ll have trouble putting on your pants.
Without fear, there is no courage.
Sin lies only in hurting other people unnecessarily. All other sins are inverted nonsense.
The specialist learns more and more about less and less until, finally, he knows everything about nothing. The generalist learns less and less about more and more until, finally, he knows nothing about everything.
The human voice is different from other sounds. It can be heard over noises that bury everything else. Even when it's not shouting. Even when it's just a whisper. Even the lowest whisper can be heard - -over armies... when it's telling the truth.
The Golden Lion Sang at
11/02/2006 12:57:00 PM
Name: A.L.F.
Nicknames: Zil Took, Aki-sama, Lin-san, Quin, Auryon_FP, Zombie Girl, Seattle
Age: Ancient and Young
D.O.B: 03/14
Location: WA/NJ
Status: Dead/Alive
AIM:
Auryon Fenton
School:
Shoreline High School Seton Hall University
Favorite Classes: History, English, Art, Alchemy, and Music Theory.
Least Favorite: Chemistry (but I like Bio and Physics! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?)
Current Fandoms: Danny Phantom, Detective Conan/Magic Kaitou, Harry Potter, and the Pendergast novels.
Favorite Animes: Fullmetal Alchemist, Naruto, FLCL, Gensoumaden Saiyuki (Reload, Gunlock, and the Movie: Requiem), Slayers TRY!, Trigun, Ouran High School Host Club, Zombie-Loan, Gurren Lagaan, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Death Note, Hikaru No Go, Gundam Wing, Meitantei Conan/Kaito KID, Kyou Kara Maoh, Bleach, Anything by Hayao Miyazaki, Rurouni Kenshin, Ghost Hunt, Cowboy Bebop, Lupin III, Akira, Blood: The Last Vampire, Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust, Ghost in the Shell (First Movie), Paprika, Perfect Blue,
Favorite Manga: MeruPuri, Return to Labyrinth, FAKE, Ranma 1/2, Oh My Goddess!, Trigun, Rayearth, Peacemaker Kurogane, Instant Teen: Just Add Nuts!, Detective Conan/Magic Kaitou, Ouran Koukou Host Club, Kekkaishi, Bleach,
Favorite Comics: The Sandman, Hellblazer, Batman, Spider-Man, 300, Sin City, Lenore, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, Squee!, i feel sick, Crimson,
Favorite Books: Fallen (all four), LOTR, Phantom, Harry Potter (all seven), The Chronicles of Narnia, Percy Jackson & The Olympians (series), Anansi Boys, Good Omens, Everworld (series), The Dresden Files (all/series), The Gormenghast Trilogy, Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy (all), Dirk Gentley's Detective Agency, Keturah & Lord Death, Grimm Fairy Tales, Crime & Punishment, The Lord of the Flies, Interworld, The Last Mimzy & Other Stories, Reaper Man, Interesting Times, Lords & Ladies, Soul Music, Maskerade, Hogfather, Mort, The Last Continent, Night Watch, Moving Pictures, The Chronicles of Amber, Dandelion Wine, Asimov's Robot Series, Perfume: The Story of a Murderer, Howl's Moving Castle, Dealing with Dragons (all four), Neverwhere, Maximum Ride (all), Dune (Frank Herbert), Relic, Still Life With Crows, The Call of Cthulhu & Other Weird Stories, The Cabinet of Curiosities, Brimstone, Hangman's Curse, Still Life With Crows, Stardust, Relic, Deathnote: Another Note; The Los Angeles BB Murder Cases, The Magician and the Fool, Artemis Fowl (all), Gun, With Occasional Music, Sherlock Holmes (all), Arsene Lupin (all),
Favorite Bands: Impossible to list...but I'll just say a few; Within Temptation, Twelve Girls Band, Relient K, Flogging Molly, Goo Goo Dolls, Nirvana, The Offspring, Mute Math, Cartel, The Used, Saliva and much much more. ^_^
Favorite Movies: The Matrix, The Mummy/Returns, Labyrinth, LOTR, Batman the Beginning/Batman Returns, Indiana Jones (all), Star Wars (all of them...*sigh*), Serenity, Constantine, 300, Pirates of the Caribbean (all), Boondock Saints, Borat, Spider-man (1,2), Aladdin, The Emperor's New Groove, Treasure Planet, Requiem: For a Dream, Reincarnation, The Abandoned, The Last Mimzy, Tuck Everlasting, Miss Congeniality, Schindler's List, The Ring, Uzumaki, Hellraiser (THE SECOND ONE ONLY), Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, & The Wardrobe, The Interpreter, Perfume, Pan's Labyrinth, I, Robot, American Gangster, Seeker: The Dark is Rising, National Treasure/Book of Secrets, Session 9, Cloverfield, Sweeney Todd (musical/movie), Shutter, Ghost World,
Favorite Video Game: Diablo, Rise of Legends, Age of Empires/Mythology, FF7/8/9/10, Kingdom Hearts, Halo, Half-life, Battle for Middle-Earth, Okami, Otogi, Gears of War, Black & White, Stranglehold, F.E.A.R, Silent Hill (all), Resident Evil (all), Diner Dash, Jak & Dakster, Legend of Zelda, Portal, Tales of Abyss,
Favorite American Shows: Whose Line is it Anyway?, Futurama, Family Guy, Clone High, Teen Titans, Seinfeld, Invader Zim, Danny Phantom, Cybersix, House M.D., Psych, Heroes, Monk, Remington Steele, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Firefly, The Dresden Files, The Boondocks, Scrubs, Ghost Hunters, and Stargate SG-1/Atlantis.
